It's that time of year

I dislike this time of year. Well, it's more of a love/hate kind of thing.  I'm trying to work on being positive and manifesting good energy. Why? Because I have something like seasonal depression and it creeps up sometime in August and ends in October. It seems to be coming early and I'm trying to stop it or at least reduce the level of stress and sadness it can bring. An overwhelming sadness, despair, and doubt. I don't want any of it.  I want happiness, and contentment.  I should be happy right now... I got a job, I should be excited. I'm indifferent.  I am grateful for the friends I have who care and fill me will positive vibes. I can't express what their friendship means to me.  I want to believe the positivity will help me conquer the issue I am having.