I'm laughing and crying at the same time I tell ya.
I had a very hard time sleeping last night. I am sexually frustrated to the point of pain and tears. My body aches, I have blue ovaries from hell, and my PMS is through the roof. I am so emotional today that I cried because my batteries died in my mouse and I couldn't find new ones, I don't need it, but I was being a baby. I cried this morning when I was unable to masturbate to rid the frustration. It was too painful and I couldn't get myself going. You know you're having a bad day when you cry because you can't get off.
I feel awful for my friend JW. He had to read all my emotional whining today. Thank you for being such an awesome friend and putting up with my emotional crap! You made my day when you called to cheer me up. I adore you.
Of all the days for me to be an emotional wreck, it had to be the day of LOVE... Valentine's Day. HA!
On a more happy note: A random stranger from my neighborhood Yelled out the passenger window of an SUV filled with men HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Have a great Friday and weekend! with a huge smile. I couldn't help but smile and laugh. Though he and his friends looked like drug dealers/ gang members, they were all pretty darn happy. You can't judge a book by it's cover, can you?
Happy Friday kids! here is my valentine to ________________
I know what you are thinking. I've been single three years and I'm just bitter and jealous of all the ladies getting gifts on Valentine's Day.
NOPE! WRONG!
I don't really HATE Valentine's Day. I just don't see the point in it. Now, I'm not saying I wouldn't be grateful for gifts and attention on that day. To me, it's just another day. Why do we need a special day to tell someone we care and shower them with gifts? Personally it would mean a lot more to me if I got flowers on any random day, just because. By the way I dislike red roses. The are so overrated. Give me some sunflowers, dahlias, or how about some random ass wildflowers you picked before you came to see me. I love chocolate just like most ladies, but why wait to have some. I'll eat it any day of the year. Actually, I buy that stuff weekly. Bring me beer, whiskey & coke, and maybe a pizza instead.
The idea of women comparing, competing and crying over what their men got them or didn't get them is just sad. Appreciate their efforts for crying out loud. And men, you make me laugh when you go above and beyond with gifts hoping to get whatever sexual desire she likes to hold out on. Ladies don't hold out on sex for gifts. That's awful. Give the guy a blow job or anal. If you really don't like it, don't use it as a way to get a gift you want only to fake that you're enjoy the sexual treat. It can ruin the moment.
I'm the type of person that does not wait for a special occasion to show you I care, give you extra super duper affection, and/or give you a gift. It will happen when it pops in my head. If I buy you a gift, it's just because it made me think of you. There are only two special days I feel it is important for me to give someone extra attention and gifts: Birthday and Anniversary. All other Holidays are optional and open for discussion.
Now IF, I ever date a man who enjoys celebrating any Holiday, I will be down to participate. Just don't make it a big deal if you don't like the Valentine's day. Talking about how much you hate it and don't want to participate over and over again is like a slap in the face. Hoping I agree so you don't have to spend money is just rude. How hard is it to kindly ask my opinion of the darn Holiday?
Okay, so some of you are thinking, what about Saint Patrick's Day, Mardi Gras, Cinco De Mayo and any other holiday you get to indulge in drunken stupidness? Like I said, They are open for discussion. As above, I always welcome beer as a gift any day of the week and ALL Holidays.
By the way Singles Awareness Day is Saturday February 15 and Steak and Blow Job Day is March 14. Do not wait until March 14th to give your man a blow job or steak. At the bare minimum that should be once a week.
So, if you want to be my Anti-Valentine, bring me some beer. Or you could bring me beer just because, which is way better.
xoxo,
Lisa
P.S. I will end this silly entry with a song. A song that I adore and I sing along to the Joan Osborne version all the time.
Yes my friends, Lent will be upon us in three weeks. Wait, three weeks? POOP! I don't have much time. I am still not sure what I want to give up. Since I started participating in Lent, I have always given up the same things. Beef, Pork, Soda, Dining out, and Junk Food. Once I gave up sex (including masturbation and porn); It was horrible.
I rarely eat pork these days. Mostly bacon and that's only once or twice a month. We eat beef more now and less chicken. Dining out isn't like it used to be. I rarely eat fast food (though Samantha and I ate McDonalds twice last week). Junk food and soda are still high on my list of things I eat in excess. Maybe I should give up Bad Carbs. Junk food and soda are part of the bad carb family, so I think it makes sense, yes? I was also thinking about doing the Daniel Fast, but you can't drink tea. Then there was the no processed food idea as well. I think the no bad carb idea may be best. It combines the bad carb and processed food together. I still have three weeks to get ideas, so if you have one, let me know.
I want to do something a bit different this year on top of my blogging daily about Lent. I want to do a writing exercise. I need 40 questions or topics to write about. I'm looking for topics that will be thought provoking, emotional, and give me an opportunity to reflect on past experiences and really look into myself. If you have a topic you would like me to write about or a question you would like me to answer. Send them my way. If I don't get 40 that's okay. I would like as many as I can get.
I am trying to edit and organize this blog. All I am doing is getting mad at myself. As I go though the entries trying to edit Labels and correct any mistakes, I read bits and pieces and laugh at how silly I can be. Sometimes i forget how weird or crazy i can be when emotionally drained or in a manic state. I crack myself up. It's nice and a bit scary to see the things I thought and felt at different times in my life.
Anywho... i think i am almost done. I will be adding old entries from other blogs that I am deleting here soon. So things may seem a little off. I will also have a bunch of entries edited and updated. I am also looking for some fun 30 day challenges to do. If you know about any, PLEASE tell me.
Yes I'm a procrastinator. I have admitted this before in an old post. I'm working on ridding my life of it, but until then I will give you a little update.
UPDATE 1
I have not finished my revamp and entry swapping yet.
SEE... Procrastination, that bastard!
All the sex talk entries will be moved to Tumblr. I will post the link to the blog when I get around to it. Not all the entries are moving, some will be rewritten and posted.
UPDATE 2
I have been on a blogging hiatus of sorts. I have noticed I only blog during extreme emotion. I don't like that. I need to work on this problem. There were times I wanted to blog but I was nowhere near my Mac. I should just start taking notes on my phone as they come to me. I do have a list of entries I want to write on in a "Blogging Journal". It was nice to take a break though and not really think about blogging. Time to get back into it and be more productive.
UPDATE 3
I started a Fitness Challenge on January 15th. It's going okay. I ended up switching from one fitness plan to another because the new coach and workouts were too advanced for me. Last week I hurt my lower back and hip. Some muscle spasms and a pinched nerve for about 5 days. It hurt to walk and sit, it sucked ass. I'm feeling much better and back on track. I have not had any soda today and only had one yesterday. I made cabbage soup for the next few days to help me detox. I'm not trying to lose weight, but I am trying to learn how to live a healthier lifestyle and strengthen my core. I'll update you as I go. I am also using the Body by Vi shakes and I really like them.
UPDATE 4
Over the weekend I went to this awesome book store in El Cerrito called The Bay Area Free Book Exchange with some friends. I have been wanting to go ever since I saw them on SF Fun Cheap. I had well over 100 books to donate and I didn't want to give them to the local library. I have been holding on to some of these books for years knowing I would never read them. My friend JW is a sweetheart and helped me transport the books. We get to the book store and I am so freaking excited. I can't even tell you how happy I was to be there. So many books to choose from and they're FREE... We left with about 17 books I think. JW picked out 2 and Kat had maybe 6, I'm not sure. W & S didn't pick anything out. The ones in the photo are mine. I want to go again, so if you're interested, let me know.
JW decided it would be a great day to go to Golden Gate Fields as well. I have never been so of course I'm going to say Hell Yeah! My first time at a horse track and it was so fun. I can't wait to go again.
*Hint Hint* VIRGINIA!!!
I will leave you with a quote I read this morning. I plan on adding it to one of my soon to be rewritten entires. It is by Tyler Knott Gregson, whom I had never heard of before today. I am an instant fan.
"Do you think it possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return?"
Not exactly the end, just a revamp, transformation, evolution, maturity (okay, maybe not maturity). Something is changing and I am going with the flow. I can feel it in my soul. I thought last year was the year of change. I called it year of self and tried too hard to change and better myself. I didn't do that bad, but I could have done better. We could always do better, right?
I've been in the mood to throw things out and start a new, anew? Is that one word or two? I have no clue. Why am I rhyming? I have been going through boxes and what not in my home and removing anything that no longer serves a purpose. This cleaning has now moved on to the interwebs. I have removed social networking accounts, friends, groups, blogs, pictures, and updating what needs to be updated. This will go on for a long time. IF you have been removed or can't find me somewhere on the interwebs, you'll just have to deal.
I would like to make all my accounts fluid and matchy-matchy. I am debating on whether I should deactivate my facebook or just leave it alone and not log in. I'm killing my Twitter, though I may make a new one later. I removed some old blogs and will be moving others to another site. I will post all new sites and links here as soon as it is complete. If you have any cool ideas or sites I should try, let me know please.
So, it's not really the end, but a much needed change of direction.
