Music Monday: I've become a bitter woman.

      I was going to write about Third Eye Blind tonight.  As I started writing another song came on Itunes.  A song that I like, but it gives me a tinge of pain.  Wait, is tinge a word? I think it is.  Jason Mraz's Who's Thinking About You Now.  I listen to this song often and have a ugly habit of answering his question in a bitter tone, in my head, while the song plays. As the song nears the end I always want to say Yeah Right! ...  I didn't realize how bitter and angry I had become about love and relationships.  Yet, I listen to this song over and over again.  Is this my own way of torturing myself?  I look through my playlist and see what I have in them and see that one in particular has a lot of song that make me look bitter, angry, and maybe a bit psycho.  Haha , okay, not funny Lisa.  I'm really keeping up on my promise to myself about relationships/ men/ love/ friends.  I'm doing so well I have made some "friends" walk away.  Oh well, not my problem. Or is it?  Have I become so bitter and self involved that I have pushed everyone away?  Maybe.  This is supposed to be the Year of Self, right?  It's helped weed out people, sadly a few who I thought were important walked away and the ones I hoped would leave, have been trying harder to get my attention.  DAMN IT! It backfired, or am I just that bad of a person?  I am working on becoming a better person, I guess i'm going about it wrong.  So many questions and no answers.  *sigh*

I keep telling myself in the end it will all be worth it, but at what cost?

Well enjoy the song. Jason Mraz aka: Mr A to Z is one of my favorite artists of all time.