Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Which Path Shall I Take

I started my Mindful Happiness journey on my birthday. Organization is the goal for now. As I try to work on what is most important, my home, I keep feeling guilt and suffocation. Why am I so sentimental? At the same time, how can I be so cold about other things in my life? Weird...

As I go through belongings, memories, and crap I started thinking. What path in life do I want or need to take? I sat down, okay more like layed in bed, and tried to figure out which direction I want to go. The answer is: I have no idea.

What a surprise, right?

Path A: Stay the course I am on, with some positive change. A safe but predictable path.

Path B: The Straight & Narrow.  Safe and boring, but will be good for me.

Path C: The Unknown. I know how to begin, but no idea how it will end. Pretty damn scary.

There are parts of me that would like to go one of these ways. The question is, which one is the right one, right now?

Maybe I need to go to church and pray on it.

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