30 Day Challenge: Day 1- My Relationship Status

This card explains my life pretty well.  I'm not saying that all my past relationship were awful.  Only one was seriously dangerous. The rest just didn't work out. It takes two to tango, right?  I have nothing to tell about my current relationship status. I  don't have a significant other, but I do not consider myself available at this time.  Does that make sense?   I will say, it is great that I am not allowed to have pets in my apartment complex, or I would already have started my crazy cat lady collection.  I do care for a cute stray cat when he comes around.  Samantha named him DJ Meow-Mix (if you didn't know that). 

This will be me someday, maybe

New Challenges

I'm excited, are you? 

This will take some work. :)

I have decide to do two challenges for the next 30 days.  I don't know where these came from because I Googled 30 Day Challenges and then downloaded the pictures without writing down the darn link.  All I know is that they are from Tumblr... SOOO SORRY!!

I will change question 15 to Favorite Blogs instead of just Tumblr.
















The music one looks fun.  So expect a lot of youtube videos.

I'm not sure how I will do it yet. The plan in my head is one in the morning and one in the evening.  Maybe a few, depending on my day or content of the challenges, will be posted together.

I wish I could say it was PMS

I have been in bit of a funk lately.  I can't shake the shitty feelings I have and the doubts that run through my mind.  I would like to say it's PMS and tell myself to wait it out.  The problem is, this all started way before my PMS started.  My PMS does exacerbate the situation.  I feel restless, fake, out of control, and completely lost.  I hate the way I am feeling at the moment and I really hope it passes.  I have been here before and I know where it leads... to a dark place I don't want to go.  I know why I am coming to this awful place again, but I don't know how to stop it.  The fear and the urge is strong this time too.  I am trying to be careful.  I am trying to distract myself and not allow my mind to drift off to this dark place.  I fear I am losing this battle.

I just want to sleep until it passes.