Broken Rearview Mirror.

2012 has come to an end, well just about. So much happened this year and yet not much of what I wanted. You can't always get what you want, right? Let's do a quick recap:

-I went back and forth to San Francisco to help Ryan and his family pack for their move. It was a chapter ending and new chapters being written for all of us. The house in San Francisco was like a second home. It was my getaway, a place for me to think and to get lost in adventures alone in the city & woods. I miss it so much.
-My cousin Michael was married and I had the chance to see my fathers side of the family.
-I decided to go blonde then went back to a color as close as I could to my natural color. I love the blonde but, I swore i would let my hair grow out for one year. It's so hard to not dye it.
-I disowned my mothers sister, that is all.
-I saw Jason Mraz & Christina Perri in concert.
-I started school again and will graduate August 2013.
-I was fortunate to hang out with some old friends & two tried to teach me how to snowboard.
-I was told I'm not the kind of girl you take home to mother. I'm too different/weird/cool to have as a girlfriend- I'm forever in the friendzone or the booty call zone.  These people are no longer my friend but sadly it seems thats the kind of guys I attract, so I have no new guy friends. When did sex become a requirement for friendship? Like I said I just happen to attract those kind of guys.  I'll pass!
-I also lost friends when I started school. I wasn't able to drop what I was doing for people, so they quit talking to me all together. Oh well, their loss.
- Friends passed away and I had to say goodbye too soon.  I guess that's just the way it is.

So, what have I learned?
I learned that some friends weren't really my friends. That even family isn't what it used to be. I'm not marriage or even girlfriend material, so I should start collecting my cats and spinster hats. I watch too many movies, or I need to watch more movies. Not sure which. I am emotionally stronger and less stressed than I have been in past years. I no longer have interest in making new friends. I don't care if you like me or want to be friends. I have learned to be comfortably alone, it doesn't bother me anymore.

I saw some movies this year, I think was more, but these are the ones that I remember:
 The Raven
The Dark Knight Rises
The Amazing Spiderman
Total Recall
Taken 2
The Man with the Iron Fists
The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey
Les Miserables

I will end this blog with a song dedicated to 2012. It was a little rough but not to bad and, it made me so much stronger than I thought I could be.  No looking back, only moving forward.

December Movies

Happy Christmas, Festivus, Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, and so on.

I went to see Les Miserables today with Ryan. I have not seen it in theatre though Ryan has seen it 3 times. I saw a recorded version many years ago on TV. I don't really have the theatre version to compare to but, It was a beautiful movie and I cried.  Anne Hathaway deserves every award known to man for her performance. I have always liked her as an actress and singer. She is truly amazing. Hugh Jackman also deserves much applause and awards for his performance as well. All the actors/actresses and performers have my respects. It was masterfully done in my opinion. I want to see it again. I also can't wait to get it on dvd so I can have a sing along at my house.

I was also able to watch The Hobbit: An unexpected Journey on the 16th. I even got a free t-shirt. I have been waiting for this movie to come out since the beginning of The Lord of the Rings. It was beautifully made. This movie made dwarfs pretty damn sexy, well I think so. Thorin, Fili, and Kili were pretty good looking dwarfs. They also had some awesome hair. Yes I know this really has nothing to do with how good the movie was, but it made it sooo much better. Is it just me or did the singing give you chills too. We need more music like that in the world. I have read the book a few times, and my daughter Samantha just read it for a book report. In the book I had a hard time deciding how I felt about Gollum, but seeing Gollums face near the end of this movie after losing his ring broke my heart, he is just such a sad creature. It gave that part of the story more emotions for me. Samantha also saw the movie and we really want to watch it again. We may do that next week.

I want to...

I want to blog, but I can't get my thoughts straight tonight. I'm trying to figure a few things out and I'm a little stuck. Maybe I'm not meant to figure it out, but to let it just fade away. I wish I knew.

Happy Christmas!

It's that time of year again. We all survived the Holiday shopping. We get to cheat on our so called diets. How do you like those gifts you'll regift or never use? Hopefully you got a gift card instead.

Each year I have a different feeling. Some years I'm totally into Christmas and some years I'm Scrooge. This year I am indifferent, but I wanted to blog about Christmas, so I will Share with you some of my favorite things about the Holiday.

• Favorite Christmas movies
• The Nightmare Before Christmas
• How the Grinch Stole Christmas
• Scrooged
• A Charlie Brown Christmas
• Disney's Sing along Songs Christmas songs 
• Favorite Christmas songs
• Happy Xmas (the war is over) - John Lennon, Christina Perri
• Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays - N*Sync
• Winter Wonderland - Jason Mraz, Jewel, Frank Sinatra, Disney singers
• Ave Maria - Charlotte Church, Christina Perri
• Sleigh Ride - Jewel, Garth Brooks
• Last Christmas - Wham!

Actually Christina Perri has a great Christmas Album. You should check it out.

Where did the time go?

Geez, it's December already? This year seems to have gone by so fast. The end of the world is coming up and then Christmas and New Years.  What are you doing for these special days? Me, I'm doing nothing super special. The day the world ends I will be in school, It's the last day of this session. Christmas and New Years I plan on being home. I'm not cooking or having company this year. Just some peace, quiet and time for reflection. This past year was pretty good. I spent time with Ryan and his family helping them with their move. I got to explore San Francisco and went to Pride with my daughter. I learned new things, faced some fears and checked a few things off the bucket list. I saw Jason Mraz and Christina Perri live. It was amazing! I went and saw plenty of cool movies.  I got to spend time with long lost friends, and made so pretty cool new ones. I removed a lot of negative people from my life and found positive people to replace them.

There are a few things that need to be resolved within myself. I know that in time I will find a way to work out the kinks. I am confident that 2013 will be a great year, but why wait for the New Year? Everyday is a new day and a fresh start. If you think about it every minute, or even second is a great time to start a new. A time for growth- mentally, physically and spiritually. I am ready for positive changes and better self-awareness.  It's starts and ends with me... Why wait till January 1, 2013.

IT STARTS NOW!

Something New with Friends (Overdue blog)

I had a few firsts recently. In November I was invited to Lake Tahoe for the first time. We left on the 23rd knowing I had never been there and NEVER attempted snow boarding. You see, I always considered myself one who dislikes snow. I believe I was 3 the last time I was in real snow, not counting the bizarre mini snow fall Brentwood had once (or was it twice?). My family lives in areas that snow, but I don't visit during that time. I always thought I hated it, people would talk about snow and my immediate response was "eww I hate snow". So I had not played in snow, made snow balls, snow men or snow angels. I had not been to a ski resort or anything really. You can see how crazy it sounds that I would agree to go. I was hesitant, but I have been telling myself that I need to try new things and face my fears. Plus I really needed to get away.

An old high school friend by the name of Eric invited me. We had been hanging out lately and he would say that he was going to get me to the snow. He was so sure he would get me to go snow boarding. He was right. We drove to Tahoe and stayed at Montbleu Resort Hotel. It was a nice place and the shower/ tub was awesome. We met up with another old high school friend Tyler and his wife Angelina.  We went to dinner and did some gambling, okay I only played Keno, but it's still gambling.

 Saturday the 24th we went to Heavenly Ski Resort and I was faced with snow, ice and lots of crazy people. We rented me & Angelina some boots and boards. Then it was off to play. Eric & Tyler are seasoned boarders, so they showed us the basics. Angelina had been boarding one time prior to this trip. So I made it clear that i am a slow learner when it comes to sports and They only had one hour to get me started then they were to take off and go do their thing. So the hour passes and I got the basics but had a hard time getting up when I fell. The guys want to go elsewhere but I don't feel ready and choose to stay behind. I have a feeling Eric felt bad, but I made it clear that they take off after an hour. So I try a few more times on my own. As I told you in the last post I was clipped by another boarder and then hit by a second person. It hurt! Someone was nice and helped me not fall again until I got to a chair. Haha..  I sat there for a bit watching the kids learn and I can't believe how small some of the kids were. To see these tiny body sliding around was super cute. I wish I had brought my phone to take photos. After a while I decide to get up and walk around. That is when Eric spotted me and we headed back to the hotel. I was walking a bit funny when we left Heavenly. I thought taking a nice hot bath would help and it did. Though I think the drinking I was doing while getting ready for the night made me feel no pain. By the time we left the room to eat I was barely able to walk. I think Eric escorted me around most of the time. We had a buffet dinner, and half way through I went to the restroom and I get lost trying to get back to the table. It felt as if I was walking for hours trying to find my friends. After dinner we walk back to our hotel to check out Club Opal for some dancing.  We had some more drinks and then it was dance time. Only Eric and I danced because Tyler doesn't dance, what a weirdo. I think we danced just about the whole time we were there. It has been so long since i went dancing. I believe that was the most fun from that weekend. I need to go dancing more often (hint hint).

 Sunday morning we went to Denny's for breakfast before heading home. The server was a young pretty girl and she was so sweet. Before we actually headed home Eric took me sight seeing real quick. It is so lovely in Tahoe, I can't believe I have never been there before. I think I told Eric a few times I would so live there. I would love to live anywhere like it.

So all in all the trip was great. I had fun and it was well worth it. I want to go again soon. I am grateful for the friends that thought to invite me. Thank you Eric, Tyler and Angelina.

Below are the few photos I took with my phone.

Friday night. You like our makeshift cooler?

Saturday night. I was pretty tipsy in this photo. 

FML, but not really.

This photo to the right explains how my week has been going perfectly. To say I have had a rough week would be pretty accurate.

I got hurt snowboarding last weekend. It was my first time, but some jerkface knocked me down, and then I got hit by another person. I didn't think I was hurt that bad and was able to go dancing the same night. As the days went by the pain got worse and I started getting dizzy and nauseous. So I went to the ER just to be safe. After being in the ER for 2 1/2 hours i was told I had a pinched nerve and some bruising but I would be fine after a few days. AWESOME! Well maybe not, a classmate asked if I had been sick this winter yet. Uhm winter just started, and I was a little sick in September, so I think I'm good. Wrong! I woke up Friday with a fever and body aches. Good job classmate, you jinxed me. So here I am sick in bed. I've been studying and trying to think of things to blog about.

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Wait, back up. Did I tell you I started school? Maybe in a recent post? Well I started taking classes at a local Adult Education school. I entered into their Medical Secretary program. It's 40 weeks and classes are 5 weeks long. I like the fact the classes are short because they will keep my interest and I learn better in fast paced courses. I started 11.19.2012 YAY! I have already finished one course. Yes I finished one in less than 2 weeks, it was easy computer basic skills. The computer classes are self paced and once you are done with one you move on to the next one. Perfect! It will give me plenty of time in the end to work on things I suck at like ten key (200 strokes per minute) and typing (50 wpm). Now I can type pretty well and do ten key as well. But this program makes you do it the way you should, not like I do, almost never using my pinkies... oopsy. So anywho, the Instructors are great. I have met some nice ladies in my classes and in the "Student Lounge".  The school was once an elementary school. I believe it was the first in town. It's pretty neat how the now City has turned it into an Adult Ed and high school on one campus. The high school is more of a continuation school, but I dont think we use that term anymore. So far I am really enjoying the classes and I'm excited to participate. Unfortunately I have already missed two days because of being ill and hurting my back. I don't want to miss anymore days. So I better get well by tomorrow night darn it.

So the week was good but at the same time LIFE tried to f**k it up. Try a little harder next time LIFE.

P.S. I need to post the few pictures I took last weekend so maybe i'll do that in a few.