I'm Tired Of The Foot Pain

I was recently diagnosed with Plantar Faciitis.  I don't know how to explain how I feel about it.  Frustrated? Confused? I just don't know.  I have walked everywhere most of my life.  I'm a pedestrian.  I'm on my feet all the time.  Always have been.  So why now? After I join the gym and try to be 100% serious about my health do I get foot problems?  My left foot has more going on than Plantar Faciitis, I have pain I can't explain in other parts of my foot.  I've had X-rays and I'm about to have a MRI to see if there is anything else.  If not, I'm screwed.  Physical therapy is the next step, I'm waiting for their call.   This issue is causing problems at work. I am half the speed I used to be, so my work is falling behind.  My Supervisor and I discussed the situation and she is doing her best to help me.  I want to hike, jog, and be able to participate in life without being in pain.  I have a feeling this is going to be something I will have to deal with and there will be no fixing it.

What a Waste of a Good Day

Today I had an appointment with an oral surgeon about my jaw and a tooth that may need to be extracted. It was an all day venture because it was in Alameda and I had never been there before. I personally feel it was a complete waste of my time and money. I lost money and time to be told nothing about my jaw (main reason I was there) and that "If you have a toothbrush and floss, you don't need dental insurance." What??? Crazy talk, right? Well, at least I think so.

Worst part of the day. I did not have enough water today. No where near a gallon and I can feel the difference. I also ate McDonald's, Samantha and I had the 20 piece nugget meals. I couldn't eat all of mine. I am surprised as I love their fries. I had a few sips of my soda and tossed it, ate half my medium fries and 6 of my 10 nuggets. I later fed my leftovers to some seagulls. Besides the fast food, I have not eaten anything else. I did buy some water while I was out and had plenty of water at home. Just not enough. My only exercise for today was walking a little bit of yoga. Once I am done with this post I will meditate before I go to bed. Space tomorrow I will be better as I will be buying two gallons of water for work.

Today I started something new called personal push goals. I got the idea from a Facebook friend named Diva Val. I have chosen four goals for February; working out for 30 minutes, drink one gallon of water, meditate 15 minutes and, blog daily. I think it will be a great way to keep up on small goals I want to accomplish. Also, I feel it will be a way for me to have personal accountability of my actions.

I said I was going to share some links with you today. I am not going to explain each one as I am still looking through them and deciding what I will use from each.

30dayfitnesschallenges.

Neilarey.com/

For some reason when I try to add links on my tablet, they get messed up. Grrr

Well I'm off to bed. Good night

Hello February 2015

Hello hello. My first day of the water challenge went well. Unfortunately I lost cost after 60oz. I do believe I made it to a gallon. I feel like it. My body is weighed down by it and I peed a lot today. I have noticed when I drink large amounts of water I lose interest in food. I only had two plain ham sandwiches today and that's it. I had no desire to make myself anything to eat nor was I really hungry. I only ate the second sandwich because I was making one for my kids and I needed to eat.

I weigh 165.  I still need to measure myself. I did take photos of myself but will not share those until the end of the month. I can't even explain the horror, embarrassment, and amount of tears that happened during and after the pictures were taken. My eyes are closed in them because I could not bare to look at myself. I am disgusted and horrified that I allowed others to see me in less than jeans and a oversized T-shirt. I feel like shit. The disgust and embarrassment is more of a motivation than my health right now.

I have some links I want to share with you next time.  I hope you will like them.

Well That Didn't Get Far.

I'm sick. So sick that I'm coughing till I can't breathe. Throat itching and feels like it burning. I dry heave and gag a lot, not to mention I just realized how old i am getting when I just about peed myself coughing. Say what??? Yup, I've hit that darn age where pee will become an issue; no matter how much I keep up on my kegel exercises. Gonna have to speak to the doctor about that.

Since I am sick and have no desire to function, I am postponing my fitness challenge. This cough I have is a workout; it exhausts me. During this time I will do research and share some ideas with you. Until then I will rest and just babble on about nothing. I'm good at that.

I'm off to sleep... Hopefully

I Think A Lot of Thoughts

There has been a lot of ruckus going on in my little brain.  Maybe because the work I do gives me opportunities to think random thoughts.

Thought #1-- I really need to do something about my cluttered apartment.  As I have been helping my friend JW and family prepare their homes for the move this past weekend. It made me realize I have way too much crap.  Okay, I already knew I had too much crap, but helping JW made me truly see it.  So, the question that popped into my head was: What would I do with all this stuff if I moved? The answer is: I have no idea. To me that is a sign of trouble.  I better get on it.

Thought #2-- I need to lose some weight and start eating better. AGAIN.. This new job has made me fat. Okay, it's not the job, it's my poor choices now that I work at a job where I sit on my butt all day.  I did a little research and I think I found a way to get some exercise in at work and found some great ideas for lunches.  I am thinking about going for the Ketogenic "diet"/ the Low carb high fat (LCHF) lifestyle.  It's just super hard because I am a Carb lover and have a sweet tooth.  I believe I can do it. I just keep using the excuse that carbs are easier to store in my "snack drawer" at work.  Lame right?  Also in my research I found this cute way to workout at work called  Deskercise, I need to pick out which ones I like and can do then make a little chart to print out and post in my cube.

Thought #3-- Blogging, it's a constant thought. I see or think of something and I think, "oh I should blog about that".  I try to write when I can.  I wish to write more content and more often.

Thought #4-- I have been having the weirdest dreams lately. I have been trying to write it all out so I can blog them.



Thought #5 --

Boredom Strikes

Doing some writing while watching Labyrinth

I'm sitting on the floor, watching Labyrinth, while eating my half burnt Digiorno supreme pizza. Okay I'm eating half and that's a whopping 700 calories... Yikes!  I think I may give up frozen pizza.
And maybe a lot of other foods I don't really need. I started using myfitnesspal and Endomodo this week.  I was using them before but my old phone wasn't able to keep up with the updates.  I may switch to a different fitness app to link to myfitnesspal. Anyway, back to the pizza calories.  I now need to work off 400 calories this evening.  I know I will have to start planning my meals and make a fitness plan to keep me on track.  Though I have these two apps to help me along, I also decided to use a fitness journal to keep up on my emotions and other habits.  I'll have to participate in some fitness challenges or make up some of my own.  

Speaking of challenges, I found some nice 30 day challenges I want to try, also I think I will make my own challenges to keep things interesting.  I want to combine photo, writing and music challenges together to keep me from getting bored.  I don't understand why I become bored so easily.  There is plenty to do and yet, I am bored.  

I need to get my ass in gear... work out, find a job, and get my shit together. I've been so unmotivated, lazy, and bored. 

Lent: Getting Caught Up On Entries.

March 21, 2014 Friday

I went for a hike with V today. We started at Contra Loma walked through Black Diamond Mines and back to Contra Loma.  It took about three hours.  I felt like my right hip wanted to fall off and my left knee was ghosting.  I was sore for a short while and thought I would be sore Saturday, but I felt pretty good Saturday morning.  I was planning on going out Friday night but plans were foiled by a reluctant friend.  Oh well, I tried.  The hike somehow felt like it took up my whole day.

The Beginning

The hike up was killing my legs, gah

Oh look cows.  Almost done. 

March 22, 2014 Saturday

Not much going on, just did some cleaning and organizing around the house.  Hung out with the kids,  and went for a brief walk to keep me from getting sore.  I didn't really eat much, actually I haven't been eating as much as I should. I am down to 146 pounds.  I did have a couple caffeine free Cokes today.   It's a bit of a regular day.  The stray cat we care for decided he wanted to hang out in the house.  He took a nap on the clothes I was trying to organize.

DJ Meow-Mix sleeping on my mess. 

March 23, 2014 Sunday

Went to breakfast with JW, K & W.   I had a yummy omelette with a hot link in it. I love spicy food, yes I do.  Did some laundry and listened to 90s alternative today; I'm being nostalgic.  I think I drank way too much tea today.  I feel wired and it's 9pm.   I got a little me time in today while the kids were at their grandparents.  YES!

I think I am all caught up on my entries. I am off to bed.

Good Night and Sweet Dreams xoxo

Lent March 17 & 18: Cabbage soup & Illness

Happy Saint Patrick's Day!

I did nothing special today.  My kids don't like corned beef so I made cabbage soup instead.  love cabbage soup.  I use the recipe from cabbage-soup-diet.com, This site even has a nice diet plan. It works for me when I want to detox.  I won't eat the potatoes or meat until the last day though.

Samantha has not been feeling well and is home sleeping.  This kid keeps having health issues and I'm running out of options.  She'll be eating the cabbage soup and hoping to feel better. I seriously believe she has food allergies and had requested testing done, but it hasn't happened yet.


March 18, 2014

Happy Birthday to Shelby!
My oldest child is 19 today. YES 19, I can't believe that in two years she will be old enough to drink alcohol and go to bars. AAHHH!!  It is hard to believe and say that I have an adult child.  Ha ha adult child sounds funny to me.  I spoke to her on the phone and we talked about her homework.  She had to write a paper on Shakespeare.  Her father was ordering in and they were just going to hang out at home.  I forgot to ask her about graduation.  Poop!  Yep, she also graduates high school this year.  I'm scared and excited to fly to Baltimore.  I haven't seen Shelby since she moved with her father and I have never been to Baltimore or even Maryland. So this will be interesting.  I miss her.

I went to Tailgaters in Antioch for the first time today.  Had some Arrogant Bastard beer and chicken wings. MMMMM Beer and wings, yes please!  I learned they have Goldfish Derbies.  I think that is so cool; I'll have to go back to try it out sometime.  The bartender Rob is a cool dude.  If you go to Tailgaters in Brentwood or Antioch, sit at the bar and hopefully you'll meet Rob.


Question: In one word, What do you want most from your relationship?

Answer: Communication

Fitness Goals and a mini update

Hello, how have you been?  I've had a busy weekend and Monday.

Sunday I went to Stoneman Park in Pittsburg to weigh in for the free 24 fit challenge I have been wanting to try.  I will get my results in an email sometime this week.  I'm pretty excited since I've become such a fat ass.  The only problem is I have hurt my right shoulder.  I have spoken to mr Doctor about it already and may need physical therapy.  So, my plan is to discuss options with my new fitness coach.  Hopefully we can find ways to help my shoulder.
I am still participating in the walking group.  We walk at LMC for now and we are looking for other walking options.   Some of you may have noticed I took the Friday 13 blog down.  After our group meeting this weekend I realized there was more to this group than I thought.  This isn't just about fitness or becoming healthier.  It's about empowering each other to become better people and to encourage each other in our difficult times.  I also learned I was not the only one discouraged by how things were going so far.  So we made group and personal goals.  Something to look forward to and keep us challenged.  No one likes boring workouts.
With my attempt to become healthier, I have made some goals to help me not only better myself physically, but mentally as well.  I have been anti-social, not focusing on my educational goals and I haven't really checked off enough Bucket List items either.  This year of self feels as if all I did was whine about how miserable I am.  THAT SHIT NEEDS TO STOP! I need to get my ass moving.
I would like to share some of my goals with you today.

Fitness Goals:

1. Complete Fitness Boot Camp (3 classes a week for 5 weeks)
2. work up to jogging on a regular basis
3. Jog Bay to Breakers 2014 
4. Reduce Caffeine/soda until I wipe it out of my eating habits.   (Pretty much finish off what I have in my home) 
5. Learn cleaner eating habits.  Reduce refined sugar and remove processed food as much as possible.          (as I type this I am having a quarter of a Pepperidge Farm cookie)

Walking Group Goals: 60 day fitness goal

1. As a group walk 1 mile under 15 minutes.  
2. No refined sugars after 7 pm for first 30 days/ after 6 pm second 30 days. 
3. Reduce inches and not worry about what the scale says (though we will weigh in)

I'll find out more about how to achieve my goals and maybe add more once the boot camp starts.  As for the walking group, we need a name, and looking for people to join.  

Happy Easter & an update

  I hope everyones Easter has gone well.  Mine was mellow until now; David just walked in the door.  It will soon be video game time.   

  March seemed to go by so fast.  Though I was super stressed with school and the load of work I had & still have, I am doing pretty good.  March was self awareness month for the 30 day challenges.  During this time I learned a lot about myself and had one to many talks with myself about stupid things I was doing.  I realized I was sabotaging myself way too much.  I was causing my own pain & heart ache over things I could not control.  I was also allowing myself to procrastinate again and getting angry when I didn't have what I wanted done.  I am my own worst enemy.  So, I decided it was time to become my own best friend and work on keeping on task, double checking myself, and working towards my personal goals.  I even made some new goals that will be added to my bucket list and 30 day challenges.  

  Lent is over, YAY! I only gave up beef & pork this year. Yes, I know I said I was giving up all that other stuff. It was so much more difficult with school and my will power was gone.  I have reduced my soda intake by a lot and I have started baking my own snacks & desserts.  So I did more of a reduce everything rather than give it up completely.  I was super jealous when my kids were eating beef jerky. 

  April is upon us with new challenges and lots of exciting plans.  I have started some new fitness fun and added some health apps to my phone to help me out.  Though April is my 30 day art challenge, I will be starting some health challenges as well.  These health challenges are to get me started for Mays Fitness Challenge.  Let me share with you what I am doing. 

The Daily Hiit (Body Rock) - Fitness & diet tips. Great workout videos and Lisa Marie (she has my name) is an awesome host. This site also has 30 day challenges YAY! I have been following this site for a long time.  The workouts kick my ass but, they are well worth it.

Lose It! - Food & Fitness tracker. You can use the website or the app. I have both.  I love the app because it has a barcode scanner.  I started scanning my food, which made me more aware of how much I was eating.  I started eating only the serving size instead of as much as I wanted.  I have lost 6 pounds in March and plan on losing a bit more.  There are challenges you can participate in (I'm doing a water challenge), tips and weight tracker. 

Blogilates - I just started using this site last week.  I have been doing their Sexy Broom Burn video.  Love It!  There are some nice exercises to do and they sell some cute workout clothes. 

My Tracks - You can get this in the Google Play store.  I just downloaded it yesterday so I haven't used it quite yet.  I have been walking everyday and I wanted a way to track my steps and where I was going.  I'll let you know how it goes. 

Hiit Interval Training Timer - This can also be found in the Google Play store.  This works well with the Daily Hiit and for walking, jogging or running. 

  So, yeah, there you have it.  I'll post my progress starting tomorrow. 

Update 02.11.13

      This is just an update on what's going on.  I don't really have anything super exciting today.   First, the sewing is going horribly.  I didn't get much done this weekend.  I have realized there are a few things I need and will have to work around all that for now.  It's not a big deal, so I'll be fine.  I did however forget that I am supposed to be taking pictures for the Project 365: Year of Self and I haven't taken very many lately. OOPS! I'll get back on that this week.  Speaking of this week, Valentines Day/Singles Awareness Day (S.A.D.)/ Bleeding Hearts Day is Thursday.  How are you celebrating?  Me, I'm watching romantic comedies 50 First Dates & The wedding Singer while I stuff my face with home made cake.  If I didn't have school on Friday I would drink myself stupid and drunk dial people.  Other big events are this week as well Fat Tuesday, Ash Wednesday, and LENT begins.  I was just thinking I better look up when Lent is coming, then I saw a post on Facebook about Fat Tuesday. POOP!  It's already here.  So the plan is this

1. Give up beef & pork
2. Give up non-home cooked meals
3. Give up junk food (excludes home made cake & cookies) 
4. Give up soda (yes I know it's a junk food, but it's my addiction)

So pretty much the same stuff I always remove.  I want to remove something non-food related, but I have no idea what.  Maybe I'll figure it out by Wednesday. 

This weekend I went on a hike with my favorite twin Virginia. It was great, the scenery was beautiful, the hike was killer, and there was some really good conversation going on.   I felt great when I got home and didn't feel sore until Saturday night.  Sunday morning I was a little more sore but was still able to run errands.  This morning I get out of bed and attempt to go downstairs only to almost fall to my death.  Okay I'm being dramatic but I swear I thought I was gonna die.  You know that feeling when your heart jumps in your throat as you mistaken how far the step is on the way down?  Yeah, THAT.  Except there was pain included.  Boy was I super sore this morning; every step was awful the first hour.  I can't wait to go again next weekend.  

Isn't it pretty

I want to live out here with the cows

I have a super special blog coming up. Thanks to my lovely fellow blogger Tam.  Stay tuned for that.


I guess that's good enough for now.  Thanks for reading.

Black Diamond Mines 6.3.12

Happy Sunday! 

Today Samantha and I walked to Black Diamond Mines. While walking one of the trails a hawk kept flying low over us. I'm guessing it had a nest near by. We visited Rose Hill Cemetery and found a baby rattle snake sleeping on one of the grave stones. We found a dead young owl and ground squirrel (RIP). We ran through a swarm of bees too. Then as we were leaving a cow was seriously watching us walk out of the park. We even saw some wild turkeys on the way home. It was about 8 miles from our home to the cemetery and back. I wore the new shoes I bought yesterday to break them in. I forgot that some new shoes make my feet go numb after a while. By the time we got home I had to take a bath and soak my feet and ankles. It was well worth it though. 

aww baby rattle snake. 

How now, brown cow... stop watching us.

Thinking about it

Thinking about life, where I have(n't) been, where I am now & where I want to be.
That's what I am doing while having a late dinner. No workout today; I was having some serious lady issues.

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