Lent day 21 It's Personal

It's early Tuesday morning. I should be asleep. Monday went well. I did too much exercise and I think I drank way to much tea. I feel wired. It was a good day though.

I am taking a personal day today, Tuesday. I'll be back Wednesday.

xoxo

Lent: Day 20 I hate Mac N Cheese, but I ate it.

Bleh

  I really do hate it. My kids used to love Mac N Cheese and want it almost every day with their dinner. I think that's why I started hating it. We had it so much. Hot dogs, mac n cheese, and green beans. For a long time that is all my kids would eat. As they got older they would eat corndogs, chicken nuggets and fish sticks. Now my son loves steak and pork chops. I have to fight with him to eat anything else. He may eat mashed potatoes and gravy or french bread (no butter). It's a losing battle with that boy. My girls have both decided they no longer like meat (except bacon, turkey lunch meat, and salami)  WTH?? Now what am I supposed to cook? Please dont say vegan meat because we tried that. No one liked it. Shelby lives with her father now so I only have to worry about her in the summer and Christmas. Samantha will only eat Caesar Salad. No other kind will do. Samantha LOVES corn, mashed or baked potatoes, with gravy if mashed, asparagus and broccoli. She is a my good eater, but only her. When and how did my kids become so freaking picky? I know we are pretty poor compared to most families, but I still buy good for you food. I have to figure out how to get my kids to eat more. They prefer processed crap which is all I can afford, but I do try to get fresh veggies and lean meats first. It's a daily battle for a well balanced dinner. I have a shelf filled with cookbooks, but I haven't found much to please the kids tastes buds.

 It doesn't help that their fathers side is filled with picky eaters. Their grandfather Dennis is the only one who eats anything. I know he makes good meals because we used to live with them. When we lived on our own, the kids father was so picky the kids hardly got veggies or healthy food. He pretty much ate crap. I refuse to make some of the meals I made back than now. Even though it would be more cost effect to make those meals and add veggies to them.  I just can't do it, The food makes me want to vomit.

  Back to the Mac n Cheese, I hate it, the taste, texture, everything. I used to add polish sausage and broccoli to it. I only eat it now because I want the kids to see that just because you don't like something doesn't mean you cant try it. Maybe you 'll like the next time. Today was a finish it off day. What does that mean? I cook anything that has not enough food for all of us. So we made fish sticks, chicken strips, mac n cheese and some broccoli. Pretty much finishing any semi-empty packages. We do that maybe once a week. I'm not going to get into the serving amount complaint I have right now. I'll save it for another blog. I ate the Mac n Cheese with a little of everything else. David (my son) did not touch the Mac n Cheese, I asked him why and he said "I don't like it". Oh nice, I'm not the only one, but I at least I ate it.

Any ideas, help, or advise on getting the kids to eat more is very much appreciated right now.

I'm off to watch Labyrinth and relax. Maybe I'll watch The Dark Crystal too.

This kitty must know my kids

P.S. We are working on our very own veggie garden. I'll post pics as we go.

Lent: Day ?? *^%#@%^*&*^&%$ (NSFW links)

I have been a bit depressed lately and i am trying to get things moving along in life.

Who am I kidding? No one. I am so F^*%ing out of it right now. My face is starting to hurt from the fake @$$ smile I've been carrying around. I'm tired, not interested in food and I cheated on my Lent. Honestly I don't care.  What did I do? I watched porn and masturbated. YUP I DID! Would you like to know what kind of porn I watched? NO? Too bad, I'm going to tell you anyway.

So I looked through the porn I have at home, but only found one I wanted to watch. I think I need new porn. Any ideas of what to get?

If i don't want what I have downloaded i usually go to hub hunter or the usual spots youporn, & pornhub. Theres another one, but I forgot what it's called.

First I watched was some softcore first time lesbian 3some.You know like when you hang out with your friends and experiment. Yeah it was like that. It was way to lovey and virginal. i watched the whole thing and thought it was a little unfair that the blonde chick got most of the attention. It was a little boring for my taste, but it was good enough to get me started. I wont watch that shit again though.

 I don't know the name of the porn because I downloaded it a while back. It's a 3some 2 guys and a chick in a yellow outfit including bright ass gloves. Why do I mention the gloves? She never took them off and they were distracting. I think both guys in the video are gay, maybe one is bi. The bi guy had 2doods tattooed on his arm, WTH?  The other guy well he would only do anal. No vag for that guy, so it would be safe to say he's gay. No worries, it was worth watching.

Eva Angelina

 Last I watched my favorite girl Eva Angelina. I'll watch anything of hers. This video I found online and it was okay. Mainly 3 women having their way with Eva. Though I love Eva, this is not one of the good ones. One of the chicks in the video was awful, I swear she was trying way too hard and she couldn't even do her part right. Whatever, it was still fun to watch Eva though, and it was enough to end my night.
*YES I'm judging porn*










So what have I learned from all this? I feel better now. I should not deprive myself of sex or masturbation. I love porn. Oh wait I already knew that one. Masturbation helps me sleep, gives me energy for the day and perks up my mood.

Have a nice day! xoxo

Isn't she damn sexy?

Lent day 17 Just pictures.

I miss us all together.

I miss San Francisco

Lent Days 15 & 16- A quickie

I just wanted to say hello. I am working on one of my other blogs at the moment. I am also doing research and prepping for a few blogs for here. I'm not really in the mood to do it, but I have a list of blogs i have been trying to finish.  Honestly i am in depression mode and trying to get out of it. I hate the way I feel right now. I know it will pass, or at least i hope it will. Maybe I'll blog later, maybe...

Lent: Day 14 what I did today.

Only day number 14? I have a long way to go.

Today went something like this...
1. made a new cleaning list
2. made a new chore calendar for the kids.
3. bought some more water and crackers.
4. sat in silence, listening to the world around me :)
5. fed the birdies again and one was peeking into the house.
6. chatted with Ryan & Henry
7. played Farmville & Cafe World
8. Googled images for : broken hearts, O face, scary food, and lolcats.
9. looked at the mess in my room and thought ' Damn it, my room never stays clean'.
10. wrote a list of what I want to blog about. {Working on them now}

Did some cleaning and trying to figure out what to do with everything that keeps ending up in my room. It's like my room is the junk yard of the house. I'll figure something out. I had a headache most of the day, but it wasn't too bad. I was still able to function. I was in a weird mood today, a sad, lonely, I hate the world day. Which is why I googled weird stuff. I was looking for a pick me up. It didn't work. It's just one of those sad little days. Thank goodness it's almost over.

Fixing a Broken heart.

WTH? So not eating that.

poor kitteh

Lent: Day 13 Social Networking & Old Photos

I didn't do much today. Organized some computer files, uploaded pictures to Facebook, and had some cake. I watched the birds eat the popcorn and bread I threw out onto the patio. I texted with Ryan for a bit and spoke with my grandmother Maria on the phone.

Lent is going well but, as you can see I am still using Facebook. So the Social Networking is still on. It's a good thing I chose to keep Social Networking going during Lent. If I would have gave it up it would take me days to respond to all the messages and clear my wall of unwanted posts. So I retracted one of my Lent choices.

Now on to some better stuff. I was going through some old computer files and uploaded the pictures to facebook. Tomorrow I will upload them to my Picasa and Flickr accounts. Here are a few of my favorites.

Neptune passed out on the couch.

My grandparents Maria & Eloy Perez

A cute duck at LMC pond

Meerkat- Oakland Zoo June 2009

Ryan riding the stone turtle. Oakland Zoo 2009