Lent: Day 12 Why I gave up Cursing & Sex

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 Why did I gave up cursing & sex? Well it was a way to help cleanse my spirit, my emotions, and my heart. I am angry too much and curse too much, sometimes. I use cursing and sex like I use soda, as a release. I guess they are not that bad because I could be an alcoholic, or drug addict. I have another addiction, but that is another blog topic on it's own. I knew I may slip up a few times with these two but I wasn't expecting to get it perfect.

 I don't know how I got started cursing again. I didn't curse at all when the kids were little. It must have been the people I was friends with after the kids father and I split. Darn bad influences. I know I drop the F-bomb a lot and sh!t too. Now, I am the bad influence with my kids. My son is starting to curse at the TV when he plays games. Then when I tell him to watch his mouth; he says I freak out about the stupid words. GREAT! So maybe I can become a better influence and show my kids there are other colorful words to use. I just need to find some.

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SEX! I'm such a man when it comes to sex. They say men have sex on the brain every 15 seconds. Hhmmm I think they were talking about me too. I love porn, sex, and masturbation, but I guess that's a no no for ladies. Yeah well I never said I was a lady. I used to masturbate on a regular basis. It helps me sleep, gets rid of my cramps and headaches. I have always been open about sex and relationships. I'm not afraid to discuss anything sexual, even if it's a topic I don't like. I won't go into detail here, maybe a mini blog series about my opinions and/or stories on sex in the near future? Yeah I can go on & on.
 I gave up sex because at the moment I really don't need it. I'm not in a serious relationship, so why would I have sex. I also gave up porn and masturbation. I can honestly say it was easier than I thought, but there have been a few times I couldn't shake the thought. I did slip up the first week of Lent, but I was also having some killer cramps. Oh well. I have been using exercising as an alternative. If I think about sex or get the urge, I exercise. It's working so far, though I think sexercise is much better. I do miss sex and porn. I know it's good for you- lose weight- better sleep & skin. It used to be that sex was just that sex, and fun. Now I need more than just sex. I need intimacy, but most people don't know what that is. Someday I will find someone worth being intimate with, until then I'll exercise. Damn that sounds boring. My life is going to suck.